I've lost all super powers.
I spent 14 hours in the garden on Wednesday - didn't even finish planting.
I have no idea how that happened.
All I do know - is that I got me a good case of the heat exhaustion, and by 8pm, after being up at 3:30 in the am, I was in tears, thinking ticks were in my hair, and wondering why I ever left Chicago.
|This little bird is super skittish. The others come running when they hear my voice, this one runs the other way! I had to remedy that. It sat with me on the couch and went through feline tolerance therapy.|
Yesterday was a wash. I could barely move. I felt like a train hit my face.
I never dressed, I barely ate - I just laid on the couch and wished I weren't so all or nothing.
I got up a few times and my legs almost went out from an under me.
I'm not 32 years old anymore -it's becoming quite obvious.
I'm feeling better today, but I'm still delicate.
The feed store called that my 20 Freedom Ranger chicks are in.
I don't remember ordering them..ha.
They are meat birds. Ya, I'm doing THAT again.
Tuesday my new laying hen babies will be here.
I have green bean seeds that were supposed to soak for two hours, sitting on the kitchen counter now going on forty-eight hours.
I have on no bra, and it's 10:15 am and I'm in my pajamas.
I want to make lilac jam.
I'm hotflashing and can't understand why it's so hot in this house when it's only 68 degrees outside.
I'm sitting on the enclosed front porch under a fan on full tilt.
Tomorrow is another day.
What I wish so hard for me, and all of you too, is that you'll love yourself where you are at.
I'm trying to love myself right now - in this new transition of my life - I'm feeling old - Aaron is gone - and I'm mighty perimenopausal. My ovaries hurt all the time. I require more rest than I used to. If I eat junky foods, I feel miserable.
Let's learn to be OK. OK? Let's learn that we are OK no matter what season of life we are in, that we are still worthy, lovable and deserve to be kind to ourselves.
Is it just me I'm talkin' to?