I thought posting yesterday would give me some clarity.
Well, it didn't.
I loved all of your advice and opinions though.
Been mulling it over, and it's approximately 2 hours before the face to face meeting.
This I know for sure.
The job will have to be as flexible as Nadia Comaneci for me to take it.
It's not about the money AT ALL.
It's not about 'having something to do' AT ALL.
Lord knows I could use more of the first, and have plenty of the second.
I have struggled with my weight my entire life.
Down inside, I know there is a fit person, and that is who I really am.
For me - working at the gym would be a catalyst to realize that dream.
Yes, I've lost over 100 lbs.
Yes, I look great.
Now, I'm not being unrealistic, nor do I have a body image disorder - it's not about how I look at all - really, it isn't.
It's about being true to myself.
It's about honoring that dream of being fit.
It's about saying 'Jayme, you did it. You said you'd do it, and you did'.
It's about keeping my word to myself.
I feel like I've been lounging in the pool of ambivalence, and it's not a comfortable place for me to be, although the drinks are divine.
There are some dreams that we need help fulfilling.
I need help with this one.
I feel that I need a personal trainer - someone to push me harder than I'm willing to push myself.
In my mind's eye - I imagine starting work at 5:30 - working my shift - then working out with a trainer, showering, sauna, and come home.
It sounds like a win win.
SO - within a few hours I should know if I'm taking it.
The flexible hours will be the deal breaker.
I shan't give up my Mondays with Aaron.
I shan't be willing to work all weekend.
I need to be able to take unlimited vacation time without pay if I want it.
So you see...this would have to be a really special situation.
Thanks so much for all of your input, opinions, encouragement and thought provoking comments!
I would love it if you would take a few minutes to watch this inspiring video!