It was the hardest ding danged thing I ever done did.
Lose over a hundred pounds?
Sit still for 10 minutes and do nothing.
Now, I'm a world class sitter if I've got some needles in my hands, heck, even a cup of hot tea - but nothing?
That was my therapy homework this week.
I met my 'real' therapist - Susan. I like her.
She was drinking a Starbucks Iced Coffee.
She almost got punched in the face for that - since I was in the throes of caffeine withdrawal - and I mean the throes, like my head was inside out - but I didn't think that I should punch my therapist in the face as soon as I met her.
I was figuring that kind of behavior would really lengthen my treatment and all.
So I had to sit in a chair and do absolutely nothing for 10 whole minutes.
No TV, no laptop, no nail clippers, no stitchery, no cup of tea, no nothin'.
I'm telling you a truth when I say I was short of breath at minute three.
Short of breath - doing nothing.
That's how antsy it made me.
I had no cuticles left at minute six.
In my head I was singing 'You Make Me Feel' and dancing like a fool.
I could have done my nails in that time!
I coulda, I shoulda - I woulda....
Minute eight, I heard myself snort.
I'm not supposed to fall asleep.
But I made it.
And I have to do it every stinking day til I see her again and 'report' to her how it made me feel.
Oh she's gettin' an earful.
I have a 'treatment plan'. Things I have to work on - and report back to her every other week.
Learning to assert myself and say 'no'. Establish healthy boundaries. Learn relaxation and breathing techniques, and a few others, that I can't quite remember right now. Learn to finish things that I start was another one, me thinks...
Susan did make me feel good though - she said she was really impressed that I would choose to see a therapist for a mental health tune up - to live my best life.
I think we are going to have a good relationship-as long as I don't see another danged iced coffee on her desk next week!
Please do try this at home, and tell me how you did.
Cause crazy likes company!
PS - Audrey and Jill - thanks so much for the book recommendation!
I bought it!