Before I delve into the fascinating world of what I eat, when I eat it and all things cucumber -
Mirjana wanted you to know how touched she was my your prayers and thoughts.
I'll see her again tomorrow.
She does not have a blog - but Jaimie does - a pox upon me for not sharing it yesterday.
I can think of nothing 'funner' than to hitch up the Squirrel to the Heep and do a cross country tour with a few chickens in tow.
How I would love to meet you all and hear your stories.
But for now - you shall hear mine.
And my story today is about cucumbers, and how I'm smitten with their cylindrical goodness.
I eat one everyday - sliced, with the skin - lightly salted with my fancy pink Himalayan salt and a bit of fresh crushed pepper.
Cucumbers are now known to contain antioxidants and anti-inflammatory properties -helping prevent cardiovascular disease as well as several cancer types, including breast, uterine, ovarian, and prostate cancers.
Eat your cucumbers.
I shall shout it from the rooftops from here to eternity - I believe that your fork is the greatest weapon in building your health, or destroying it.
I've struggled with my weight forever.
I have precious few pictures of me thin, or average at best.
It's been the thorn in my flesh - and oh how much flesh there was for that thorn.
Here's me at my heaviest - nearly 300lbs - hiding behind a freshly planted magnolia tree at Glen's 40th birthday.
Here are a few others - the glasses and clothes should giveaway what year it was!
Glen's a handsome cuss isn't it?
I imagine my weight has embarrassed him on more than one occasion.
And here's one I found of me and my mom at my wedding shower in 1983.
Still one of my favorite pics, we resemble each other so.
I often wonder how this journey is going to be any different from any other that I've been on - I've lost the weight twice before, and gained it back, plus some.
What seems different to me now can be summed up in two words.
Gratitude and acceptance.
Acceptance that this is 'my struggle'.
We all have something.
Acceptance that it just is what it is, that I just don't feel well when I eat processed foods.
Acceptance that I'm possibly never going to be 'fixed' and will always have to guard my mouth carefully.
And I'm OK with that - most of the times - sometimes I still have my temper tantrums and think that 'life isn't fair, why can Sally have the Twinkies and I can't?'
Grateful that I found a program that works.
Grateful for my Coach.
Grateful for all of you.
Grateful that I'm learning how food truly affects the human body.
Grateful for the journey.
The joy is in the journey - not the destination.
I want you to know that I still struggle.
I want you to know that at times I pace the floor, praying for strength to stay out of the kitchen.
I want you to know that sometimes I fail.
I want you to know it's not easy, but it's worth it.
I want you to know that you can do it too.
I want you to know that you shouldn't wait until you 'feel' like doing it - that the wanting to do it will come after you start doing it.
Did I feel like working out at 248lbs?
I kept my cellphone handy for a call to 911.
Do I jump out of bed and feel so excited to do squats now and eat super clean?
I still want pancakes and syrup many a morning.
But I pause and think of how emotionally painful it's been to be the fattest girl in the room, how physically painful it's been at times to just get off the floor.
Basically, if a food has a label - I don't eat it.
I'm not 100% on that - but it's my guideline.
I'm still human.
I'll close with this - my favorite recipe for breakfast - I've shared it before, but I'll share it again.
I eat it just about every morning with two cups of fresh fruit.
If I don't eat this - I eat four egg whites with one yolk and a bunch of veggies mixed in and scrambled.
I find eating the same thing for breakfast - going on autopilot with it, pretty helpful for me.
It's a no brainer.
Surprisingly, I don't get tired of it.
The Coop Keeper's Eating Clean Breakfast Sausage
1 lb of ground turkey BREAST
6 T oatmeal
2 egg whites
1/3 cup finely chopped onion
1 T fresh sage, chopped (you can substitute dried ground to taste - maybe 1 teas)
3 T fresh parsley, chopped
1/2 t. pepper
I mix this all together, and form four patties out of it. It keeps in the fridge since I eat one patty every day. I spray a hot skillet with Pam Olive Oil spray.
You can pre-cook them all and microwave them. (I did that when we went camping, and it was fine). Or you can make a ginormous batch and freeze them.
Aaron, the Boychild loves this sausage!
I just started using the Breakfast Sausage spice from The Spice House and I won't go back now - it's utterly, ridiculously delicious.