I think I'm safe in saying it's what we all long for - hope for -
to live a happy life.
Personally - I cannot live that life that I long for when I'm enslaved to things, or in poor health.
I cannot live that life when I'm smothering in my own home from clutter.
And I'm all about living my best life.
I have no idea where it comes from, but my soul rather demands it of me.
It's why I ditched my SmartPhone 8 months ago.
It's why I ditched wheat and dairy a couple of years ago.
It's why I ditched sugar a couple of weeks ago.
It's why I continue to declutter and live in simplicity.
It's why I have chickens, and bees and gardens.
It's why I blog.
I'm happiest when I'm sharing myself in the hopes that I can inspire someone else to find their happy life - and maybe - just maybe - it's on the same road that I'm traveling, and I like company.
Yesterday's blog made me feel vulnerable - but you know what?
I don't care.
I'm tired of hiding things.
It is what it is.
I'm a sugar addict and I can eat a half dozen king sized Snickers bar within five minutes and still want more.
Is there inherently anything wrong with that?
I really don't think so - I mean - if you are happy living that way - then live that way.
I'm seriously not judging. I'm not.
If what I'm about to say sounds the least bit sarcastic, please know - I'm seriously not wanting it to.
What I'm saying is - if you are overweight, and well, not happy about it - and if you notice that you seem to not be able to control your eating - but you want to eat it anyway - and you don't really care about what you are doing to your health - then I say - fine. If you notice that you can have a slice of cake once in a while and it causes you no ill effect - so be it! Enjoy!
Putting sugar in my tea in the morning keeps all of the cravings alive and well, and keeps me in a constant battle of wanting more.
A slice of birthday cake at a party causes fireworks in my brain, that I absolutely adore - and within days I'm at the drugstore candy aisle looking for some circus peanuts, Mike and Ike's or anything as sugary as possible to feed my addiction.
I really wish it weren't so.
But, alas - it is.
And then I go and go and feed that addiction in a frenzy - only to finally wake up in the proverbial gutter - feeling like a complete loser.
Why in God's name would I continue that behavior?
Maybe for some of you, it is like it is for Glenco.
He can open a candy bar - take a bite and leave it on the counter for days.
Of course - it never lasted days, cause I was here.
My left eye would twitch until that bar was gone.
How do you simply forget that you were eating a candy bar?
You might be saying - well what about artificial sweeteners, or things like those breakfast cookies that I see so often on Pinterest...sweetened with just a banana!
It's all the same for me - it's like an alcoholic switching to non alcoholic beers - the behavior is still there, I'm still giving my brain what it is demanding - and I won't have that!
I won't go on anymore right now - cause I just don't want to run this subject into the ground.
If you do want to talk more about it - please feel free to contact me.
I'm just sharing my life here - and right now - this is my life.
But guess what?
I have no cravings right now whatsoever.
For that, I'm thankful.
It might change tomorrow, and I know that.
My mind is so much clearer - and you'll be glad to know that I'm working on making cards out of my drawings! In fact - I may have some ready for sale as soon as tomorrow!
I'm giving the credit for that to being sugar free....it seems like I can finally keep my thoughts in a row long enough to follow through with some things.
Life is better this way.