I've not got a lick of business even being up on the computer. I'm still in my pj's with rice baking in the oven, laundry going, and Emeril's Vegetarian Chili recipe simmering on the stove - and I only have about 2 hours before I have to get out of here for the day.
Today is my Cooking Club - the theme is vegetarian, and honestly, I have no idea what, if anything I'm going to eat there.
Meat is ONE thing that I can have right now!
I really don't like that kind of attention drawn to m'self.
I really don't.
Anyhoo - it's been a super busy weekend, and it's going to be a really busy week.
I've got that 'stressed out' feel that I haven't felt in sometime.
I've got new bees coming next week, I have about 200 tomato plants under grow lights that need to be transplanted, and I've said 'yes' about 7 times too many lately to misc. things.
Don't tell anyone around here, cause they might hang me if I said this out loud - I'm a bit glad it's still bone cold out - it gives me more time to get things done inside that I need to do.
I have hopes of being this great blogger - responding to each and every comment, blogging in a coherent manner - I'm here to tell ya - I don't see that happening anytime soon.
I honestly don't know how people do it.
I just wanted to check in and let you know -
Day 6-bring it.
I'm still Whole 30'n it.
Dashed are my hopes of taking photos of all my food - I really should have known better.
I've gotten myself way too busy again, and I can't imagine having the time to do something like that.
Here's someone that has though -
Yesterday was tough, and in fact - I needed reinforcements with me at the grocery story.
Glenco had to go with me to make sure I didn't rape the Easter candy aisle.
I felt weak yesterday - started another menstrual cycle.
I'm getting them every two weeks now - is that the way it gets near the end?
I kept thinking of how fabulous it would feel for sugar to bathe my brain.
Peeps would soothe my soul, and jelly beans would calm the anxiety.
If I had Cadbury eggs I could breeze through my to do list with a smile on my face.
I know some of y'all think I'm a bit off my noodle for doing this - that I just need to moderate, yadda yadda.
I'm not going to eat 'this way' forever - but I'm just ding dong determined to eat this way for 30 days.
I highly doubt I'll go back to grains or dairy - maybe on occassion - and I'll be putting honey in my tea, and I'm hoping against hope that after 30 days somehow my brain and my relationship with food is reset in a way that I CAN just let intuition be my guide when it comes to food.
Right now my intuition is held hostage by sugar, much like Captain Phillips was on the Maersk Alabama.
Honestly - I'm getting mighty tired of it even being an issue in my life.
I can do this.
Here's a recipe for you today - it's been a favorite of mine for a while - and it's Whole30 compliant - everyone that I've served this loves it!
I'll leave you with this - a Facebook status from Thursday when I picked up Aaron from the airport.
(there's talk around the homestead of him moving to Houston by year's end - I don't want to talk about it)
Have a wonderful day - and please let me know if you are still Whole30'n it. I'm sorry I can't be more present at the moment - but rest assured I think of you all as I fight through the cravings. Truly, knowing you are doing the same, gives me strength.
Working on not letting things ruffle me - but staying in a state of peace at all times.
Today - when I dumped a gallon sized Ziploc of frozen blueberries on the kitchen floor minutes before I needed to leave - I kept my peace.
As I cleaned them up with a gimp arm, and they were ev.er.y.where - I kept my peace.
When I was approached by a policeman with his sirens on at O'Hare Airport for being parked where I shouldn't be - I kept my peace.
When I couldn't find my nephew at said airport - I kept my peace.
When I accidentally took I 90 from the airport because I was distracted talking to said nephew - and snaked all.the.way through Chicago going 6 miles an hour - I kept my peace (for the most part)
When I came home ravenous and realized I didn't have the diced tomatoes for the recipe I was making - I kept my peace.
When I opened my spice drawers and found that someone was dicking around and misfiled the curry - I no longer kept my peace.
There's only so much a girl can take in one day. : -)