There are a few things I choose not to talk about on this here ole blog -
Even though I talk about the birds and the bees all the time -
I don't talk about:
I'd actually rather go to the dentist and have my head drilled than to have a political discussion.
My dentist is awesome and there's nitrous oxide there.
What's not to love?
But I do talk about a lot of things.
Life is so full - so many things go on around this ole place, there is no way to share it all.
So many 'bloggable' moments go by uncaptured.
Such is life.
I wanted to tell you what's going on with me - because those of you that know me for real - or here - know that I share my life pretty openly. I think I was just born an open book.
My hope is always to help someone.
I've been in hell this week.
Hell, my friends.
A year ago, my doctor prescribed Effexor for me - 37.5mg. It's the smallest dose they make. I was pre-menopausal, hot flashing, and having some serious PMS. My periods were extra painful, and when I went the Dr. - I told her - it's one or the other - the emotional stuff, or the pain stuff. I could only deal with one - preferably none.
So - I started taking the Effexor. I noticed an immediate benefit, and really felt good.
A year later - I want off the stuff. I'm not entirely sure why - other than to say, I just don't want to take prescription drugs. I don't like the idea of putting chemicals in my body everyday.
I've been tapering off, cutting my dose down, and sisters -
I can't even describe what I've been going through this week - but I'm a hot mess. Today was the worst.
I've been crying on and off - my vision is off - I feel like my head is going to explode, my ears are under pressure, I can't stand the slightest noise, I've been cross with Glenco, and my brain feels like electric shocks are going through it. I also can't sleep to save my soul.
After diligent Googling, I've found this is quite normal, and that Effexor is considered one of the hardest medications to come off of.
I broke down and took a full dose today - because I just needed my life back right now. I need to work in the yard, and clean the coops and cook, and well...just LIVE. I will have to stop taking this when I have the time to get through it - perhaps this winter when there isn't any outside work, and I can make a big pot of soup, curl up and just get through it.
I just wanted you guys to know what was going on - and why I haven't been able to get a DeClutter email back out to you - or return emails in a timely fashion.
Please be warned about this drug.
I wish I had been.