Today is 'the' day.
I like to kick, and stretch- and kick....
Of course it doesn't feel a bit different than 49.
What do I want for my birthday?
It's different than Christmas.
I want presents baby!
I don't want cake - I don't want a fancy night out on the town - I don't want jewelry -
I want a big truckload of horse manure.
I want boxes of baby chicks and turkey poults.
I want trees and shrubs.
I want workout clothes and barbells.
I want a CrossFit membership and a bucket to puke in while I'm there.
I like where my life is going - but I want more.
I have felt a bit goal-less lately - a bit in limbo - and it's time for it all to change.
I know it sounds silly to say - but it feels like the clock is running faster and faster these days, and if I'm not careful I'll have some regrets.
Aaron is sleeping upstairs as I type this - it's almost time to wake him for school.
He's wanting to stay home today - says my birthday should be a National Holiday.
Nice try Aaron, nice try.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do with today.
I thought of heading out and spending the day alone - going to my favorite places like JoAnn fabrics, Barnes and Nobles, and the gym.
I thought of calling a friend to spend the day with me.
I thought about making a gluten free Lemon Tart.
I thought about tearing apart my office and painting it.
Perhaps I should stay home so I can accept all of the flower and gift deliveries.
(Please email me if you need my address!)
Perhaps I'll have a conglomeration of it all.
One thing is for certain - tonight I will sit on the couch with Glenco, watch Season Five, Disk Two of Big Love and knit.
And eat lemon tarts.
One thing I know for sure - I want to sit down and get my head together.
I need a big goal to shoot for -
maybe another marathon or something.
I don't cotton to this willy nilly feeling I've had lately - no clear direction - just floating along.
I also need to finish up my 50 Random Acts of Kindness this week - I missed a few days when I was sick.
I need to tell you about that project. I hate to use words like 'amazing and life changing' but it really was in so many ways.
Thank you for being here - thank you for all the laughs and encouragement you've given to me.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!