Have you ever thought about the things you are afraid of?
Do they seem silly?
Do you ever face them?
A few years back - I faced a few frivolous fears I had.
One was sleeping without covers.
Well - I couldn't do it.
I still can't.
No matter how hot I am - I need a cover.
I also tried to sleep with a limb hanging off the bed, and I managed to do that. Well, at least I fell asleep that way. I had fears as a child that someone was under the bed, and would grab the limb. It may or may not have developed that fear after sharing a room with three ridiculous sisters. How any of us got any sleep is beyond me. My favorite maneuver? Creeping out of bed with a naked baby doll and sneaking up to my sister Cindy's bed and slowly raising the baby doll up in her face. Oh the memories! My poor mother!
Eating alone is another fear I've not been able to conquer. To walk in a restaurant that has a menu - sit down - order a meal - and eat it - without a book or a magazine in hand seems impossible. I've never even done it with a book. What an odd fear!
Another fear, perhaps not quite as frivolous, is a fear of horses. They are just - um - so big. And I have no faith that a little string in my hand is going to control them whatsoever. I was thrown off a horse at a Christian Girls camp one time after a scarf that the girl in front of me was wearing flew off and spooked my horse. A pony tried biting me at the County Fair. I liked horses from afar. I did conquer this fear about 15 years ago. I went to a local stable and asked the horse nearest to death. I got Amos - a retired Amish farm horse. He was massive, but let me sit on him while he ate. He'd walk a bit, and eat some more. Perfect.
I've said all of that, to say this.
I'm taking a blogging break.
I'm planning on being back in January.
It scares me - to think of not blogging until then.
I fear you'll all forget about me.
Isn't that odd?
To be scared of NOT blogging?
Truth is I just want to close this computer up for the month of December and enjoy the magic of the season.
I want this Christmas to be different.
I want to slowly lick the candy canes, and take my time with the decorations instead of feeling that it's something to cross off the 'to do' list.
I want to savor it and not feel the need to photograph it and blog it.
I'm hoping I can face this fear!
If not - I'll be back tomorrow.
Merry Christmas y'all!