Let's Get This Party Started

Ok, talk about getting real - it's March 1st.  It's time.

Time to plan the garden, time to pick chicken breeds, time to make some decisions, dreams and plans.

I can literally smell the soil in my nostrils.

Thanks for being so kind to me the other day, I really appreciate it.

I can't be a fake blogger - I don't have enough talent for that.

My life is my life, and I blog my life, so there ya go.

If I'm feeling blue, y'all are gonna know about it.

: -)

The fluttery feeling that was in my esophagus has moved down into my stomach - but 

it's the good kind of butterflies.

Jensamom said that she thought the robin I saw was a sign, and I'm agreeing.

I need to hold on a little bit longer.

I need to dig deeper.

Embrace the homesteading more.

You know - it's funny when you 'say' one thing - like you want to live a super simple, frugal, close to nature type of lifestyle - and yet it's quite different when that is no longer a choice, but a necessity.

It doesn't quite seem as romantic then.

Now - there is nothing left that can be cut from the budget.

We don't drink, smoke, gamble, eat out, have paid for tv, trash service, the furnace as set as low as humanly comfortable, and I'm not about to eat hot dogs and macaroni and cheese in order to save money on the food budget - because that kind of nutrition, or I should say the lack of it - will cost more money in the long run.  You really do have to put your money where your mouth is.  

I don't get manicures, pedicures, or go to the hair salon anymore.
I can't remember the last time I didn't buy clothing that wasn't used.  Two years?  It's been a year since I bought a new pair of shoes, and those were shoes for running.

I've even given up - are you ready - Starbucks.

Although, I did apply for a job there yesterday.

Again, I feel incredibly thankful for your support and kindness.

Just a quick post today.

I wanted to  let you know how I calmed myself yesterday and that I am feeling a bit better.

I faced my fears and realized that 'worst case scenario' wasn't that bad, and that I still had an incredibly beautiful life.

So I work - so what?

I have to believe that everything happens perfectly - and if I end up out working among the English, I'm going to believe it's for a reason - that I will meet someone I need to meet - or that someone that needs me will meet me.

If I work outside the home, I will realize that it's because it's something my soul needs and the Good Lord has orchestrated the whole thing.

My cleaning job for yesterday was cancelled, due to me being exposed to the flu, and her having very young children - so what's a girl to do?

Go to JoAnn fabrics - that's what a girl does.

I bought a few items I needed in order to finish some things up for the Spring Open House.

How do I get anything done?

I made these ridiculous things to sell at the Open House, and ultimately on Etsy.

Now - if I can get $1000 a piece for them, I'm good to go.

Then, I got these texts.

They broke my heart, and then put it together even stronger that it was before.

Life IS good you guys - no matter what it is you are going through - we have to believe it's all for a reason, all for a purpose, and we have to strive to find the meaning, the lesson and the joy in it.