Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Things I Miss Today


 I'm up way late in the night - and I'm not sure why - I'm most definitely ready to sleep - but I just wanted some me time me thinks.

I've been finding myself quite nostalgic today.
Missing many things.
Life is so different this year - and that's okay - but I'm seeing more and more clearly that I really had the life I wanted - and dadgum it, I want it back!

I miss you guys.  I miss my drivel.
I miss sharing my life with you.
I miss sharing my trials, my triumphs, my conclusions, and just my little corner of the world in general.

I really, really, really miss my garden.
I'm shocked at how left untended for such a short period of time, things quickly go south.
This applies to many areas - our relationships, our health, our homes, and our gardens!

All the following pictures were taken when the garden was tended regularly.





I miss having time to sit in the garden and read - and have my hair arranged so nicely with baby birds in it!  I miss nurturing things.  People, plants, animals....
 


I miss telling you things like 'oh, I have 19 chickens now - two roo's - one Copper Maran - who rules the roost - a fine proud bird that is kind-ish to the other  rooster - a Black Barred - who is so lovely and gentle...

I've so wanted to tell you about HopSing - the crippled bird that I have - and the lesson that I learned from her - that sometimes helping hurts - and some people and things are just better left alone.



I really, really miss knitting, and yarn, and needles.
I also miss this scarf.
I lost it this Spring!  It was so much friggin' work too.
: -)
 


I miss having time to be ridiculous...

 

I miss having time to wash my dishes and meditate whilst I do.

 

I miss this...



Oh and I miss these pants!
They were some of my favorite pants, but now - well - let's not talk about it!
 



I miss my bees - they just all up and left a couple of months ago - the yard seems quiet without them.
I'm certain I'll get them again...


 I miss my sister - nearly gone a year now - the reality is impossible to grasp, she doesn't seem gone to me - and really she isn't...til soon Vivvie...


 I miss outside.  I miss taking the time to gaze upon the outdoors.


I freaking miss my ducks.  Maude and Claude.
I know Claude has gone on to the great big pond in the sky - but Maude?  Where she be?  There's a nesting pair of mallards that return every Spring now - and they come oddly close to the house - I believe it could be her.

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I miss hours spent meandering greenhouses...



 I miss the smell of my camper - The Squirrel - I miss padding out there barefoot on a gorgeous night like this one - sleeping out under the stars with the frogs singing and the fireflies flitting -


 I miss typing here and figuring out what I think and I believe as the cursor blinks on - 
I miss you guys.

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I cannot say it enough - I miss my garden!

 

Don't hate - but I'm almost hoping that this comes sooner than later...

Snow.  Frost.
At least then the garden and it's demise will be out of my control...

 

Now it's not all gloom and doom - nay - it's actually all very good.
I've set a goal for this year - and I do believe I'll reach it - and then I am scaling WAY WAY back - no more three and four markets a week - no more every week - nope - just here and there - and whatever makes me happy.  It's just this year that I'm sacrificing so much.  I've met the most incredible people and I'm learning so much.  Learning what is truly important to me - learning what hard work really is. 

You know - I've never really had much in the way of material wealth - but looking back at my old blog posts from years past, I realize I was the richest girl in the world.
What an enormous blessing to realize that.

Til soon...


56 comments:

  1. Been missing you, Jayme. Glad you are missing us too, along with all those other riches. Always happy to read what you choose to share -- your journey is touching, inspirational, thought provoking, funny and everything in between.
    Just keep taking good care of you. See ya soon.
    Susan

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    1. Susan - thank you so much for taking the time to leave a comment! So glad to hear from you! ((hugs))

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  2. Your photographs are sure beautiful. Hope you get to that point you want.

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  3. Very well written.. As always! You've worked very hard to get to where you are today..you are rich in many ways!! It's fun to see where our goals take us and once we reach them we then realize we are in charge of the rest of our dreams! Dream on..

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    1. MJ, coming from you - this is a balm. I know you 'get' the market grind!

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  4. Your post brings back memories of when I was a stay at home mom. I would see "the rest of the world" dressing up, going to work and being amongst grownups. They all seemed to have money for new cars, meals out, vacations, new clothes. I had to be creative without an extra car/money. When one of my daughters said she wanted to go to preschool, I thought, "here is my chance" and found a full time job. It didn't take more than a month to realize that I was the one who had it all before, and I would now look at all the stay at home moms, comfy in their jeans, being with their children and wishing that was me. Finally figured it out that a part-time job was more for me so I went back to school, became a nurse, and have been happy ever since (working part time). Everyone always asks "what do you do with all your free time?" Ha! Living on a "minifarm", you can figure that out! It is funny how you don't realize how good it is until you lose it. But at least we finally figure it out before decades go by....

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    1. Oh Kelly - I couldn't have said this any better...so glad to know someone else that thinks like me! I'm so looking to being 'part time' next year!

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  5. Jamie, you set goals for yourself and you achieve them. This is what most people strive for but never quite accomplish. I know exactly how you feel because I am similar to you in that respect. Once I achieve a goal Im bored and ready to tackle something else! I think that's how one should live life! Learning, moving, changing, bettering....is there such a word? I have been in your shoes when it comes to making and selling things at markets and craft shows. Yes....I made good money and it was hard work. But...you know what? I discovered after a few years that I was happier with less money, finding used things at garage sales and repurposing them, baking, cooking, gardening....you get the drift. Now I do about 3-4 shows a year. So I am in a very good place right now.....I have a little of everything I love.......
    It's okay to slow down and enjoy the ride!
    Blessings to you and your family, Patti

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    1. Patti! you are so right - I too am the one that happier with making do - and staying home. Thanks so much for your encouragement. I love that you've found a happy balance! It gives me hope!

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  6. So happy to hear from you. A bright happy start to my day.
    You are an incredible gal. I am happy your business has been successful, but it seems you need to find a balance to it all. Enjoy these waining days of summer.

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    1. I so do need a balance. I will find it -
      I took an extra long walk around the yard this morning when I let the birds out - and just reveled in the late summer goodness of it all. I'm also learning to embrace weeds. : -) it's all good!

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  7. I, too, have missed you! New rule of thumb for you....when you are too busy to share your life with us through pictures and prose, you are too busy! Oh wait, that may be selfish on my part. You keep doing whatever makes you happy and I will feel blessed whenever I get to hear from you!!

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    1. Mary Beth! You are so sweet. I still remember you coming out here for my open house. Such a doll. Hope to see you again sometime! Thanks for sticking it out here with me!

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  8. I miss reading your daily drivel, but am happy for you with the success you're having with business. There was so much life going on in your garden and with the chickens, etc. It's a lot of responsibility to keep it going. Of course you can nurture it all back again, if you choose. Life is a chapter book and this is the chapter about marshmallows.

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    1. Denise, this is SO the Marshmallow Chronicles at the moment! I look at things and know that I can get caught up again with it all - the windows will be washed again someday! For now - I make mallows. : -)

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  9. Hello my beautiful friend. I have been waiting for this moment in your life . . . for I truly believed it would come. You have been sooooo busy . . . . too busy. And yes it was great, and you're glad you did it. But home is waiting. It has been waiting all along. Home has missed you. I have missed you. Welcome back :). You really can have it all. A few shows here and there when you want. And home and that big beautiful garden and that camper all waiting for you to enjoy. You are blessed. And I am blessed to know you :). Prayers for you today my sweet sweet friend.

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    1. thank you so much for your prayers!! Home has missed me indeed. As we pulled into the driveway today - I laughed and said 'people must think the lady that used to live here died' - there are four foot weeds in the landscaping. True story! I smiled and said to Glenco 'makes you appreciate all the hard work I used to do, doesn't it?' : -D

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  10. We miss you too! I loved the baby chickens in your hair! And your garden!!! marsha@tubbslanefarm.com

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    1. :-) thank you! That's one of my favorite pictures....

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  11. You have the most awesome knack of writing about all the things that people have in their heads but usually don't let out. I totally enjoy these moments when you just bust out with all that is going on in your head. :)

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    1. :-) thanks so much! There's always so much in there.

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  12. Listen to your heart girl. I cause someday you won't be able to have what you want.

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    1. Nancy - you have no idea how your words resonated in my heart when I read them. WOW. Very powerful statement. Thank you.

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  13. How odd to see this here. As I typed my post today (and I haven't posted this summer much because of all that is going on in my life) but I was thinking of YOU. I was wondering how YOU were doing and wondering if you were still doing all the markets. Now I have my answers. You have blessed ME richly-always- with your words and open honesty. God bless you...sure have missed you.
    My brother has been gone two years now-my only sibling-and I still can't quite wrap my mind around it.....so sad....but, like you, I believe we will be reunited someday. xo Diana

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    1. Sweet Diana - thank you for thinking of me! I think of you guys oh so often. This seems to be a season of busyness for many - praying we all find a good balance soon. I think the key is to enjoy each moment - whatever it is we find ourselves doing...

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  14. Hands down.. .the. best. post. ever!!! Everything you shared. I missed too!! And, you!! Been missing you. I love all of the nostalgia...going on here.

    Thanks for being that little ray of sunshine - even while the gray clouds linger.

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    1. Awe Bevy! You always make me smile so much! You are a drink of sweet tea on a hot summers day! thank you!

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  15. Well it's all there for you to return to, that's the beauty of the thing. :-)

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    1. That indeed is beauty Karen! Thank you for that reminder!

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  16. Hope to see you while we are in the area. We head west on Aug 15th.

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    1. That's five days! Yikes! Stop by and get some mallows for your travels and campfires!

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  17. And I've missed hearing from YOU!!! What a treat. Be well.

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  18. Hey Jayme, I hear ya. This is The first night I have been on the blogs in ages. We are still building this house, My Shug's Mom passed and I'm running the estate, helping with my cousin's wedding and preparations, and I've just been too busy to live the life I want. Whatever that is....

    Cindy Bee

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    1. Still building that house! Wow! Wishing you peace with all you have going on...xo

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  19. Beautiful Jayme . . .
    You can really speak . . .
    I miss you . . . Love when YOU are HERE . . .

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  20. Thank you for stopping to say hello! You are missed!

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    1. Thanks for missing me - I have to be honest, it makes me happy to hear that. : -)

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  21. Miss you! I identify with this post. Which is exactly why I blogged today -- for the first time in months. Thinking of you, and hope to see you around here more <3

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    1. Don't you miss blogging? I do - hope we can both find more time to do this, and the other things we enjoy!

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  22. Jayme - an unexpected pleasure to see your update tonight; you weave a magical trail of thoughts......absolutely embraced. Reflection is good for the soul - helps to untangle our wants from our needs....perhaps you just needed to chat with us and sort out your 'full cup' of days. Cudo's to the limit for jumping into a new business that has proven successful, exhausting and without a doubt, added to a lovely lady's adventurous spirit! The homefires await when the time is right Jayme.......

    You put the jazz into this little blog -- joining the other readers to say it is good to hear your heart tonight.
    Blessings,
    Barbara

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    1. Barbara - even if you didn't sign your comment, I would know it was you. Your words are so beautiful and encouraging. Might you come to Indiana and have tea with me soon? I have a feeling I'd leave a much richer woman. xo

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  23. Hey Lady!! Good to see you!!!

    jan

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  24. I know exactly how you feel!! My husband and I started a business last year and it is all consuming! The bad thing is that it is HIS dream and mine was like yours.....home, garden, animals, simplicity but what do you do? Support your husband in his dream right now....sigh. Your blog has always been my happy place. I can't get enough of your yard.....drool!!! I go back to your Yard Tour and I am in heaven!! Your blog is still my favorite although I have missed you and your crazy home/animal/garden antics. But you must do what you have to do! I'm trying to learn how to do the things I loved before while working full time....just do them in smaller doses. Hugs and happiness to you!!

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    1. Hi Lisa! Thanks for writing - you can't get enough of my yard? Oh you should see it! I'm not being self depreciating either...honestly, if I had the guts, I'd post pictures. The house is getting that abandoned look, and I'm not joking. : -) Thanks so much for stopping in!

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  25. Hi Jayme, do you remember me??? The one who's children made themselves right at home in your house, looking under your beds for kitty cats as if they were their own???? Isn't it amazing how a path can cross just one time, but can leave an everlasting impression?!?!!? I drive by your home with the children every so often when we are heading in that direction for something, and to this day the children point out your home and say "Remember when Miss Jayme had us in her home? They say it as if you were the best of friends, but that is because YOU made us feel that way!!! :-) Several years have passed and they still ask when we are going to visit with you again, a path that left an everlasting impression INDEED! I think of you every. single. time. I where my jacket that you gave me and lift your name up high to the Lord, YOU ARE A DEAR ONE. Oh my this post,I feel things so emotionally it almost did me in. In a good way though...

    with love,
    Carissa Anne

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    1. Oh my word do I ever remember you!!!! I remember that coat too...ha ha.....I've wondered where you've been. You know you are always welcome. : -) xoxo SO great hearing from you!

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    2. Just reading through the comments here.. and lo and behold.... it made me smile to think, realize that two (was going to say random) special and dear blogging buddies of mine - happen to know each other in real life. How awesome is that?? And... I'm a tad jealous. HA! LOL. Maybe one day - I will have the privilege of meeting both of you gals... as I do have family and friends somewhere out there - amongst the corn. :)

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  26. Oh my, how did I miss this post? I miss you too and so glad you popped in. I love the pictures and I miss you too! :)

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  27. Sit down. Pour yourself a cup of tea and chat for a while. Repeat as often as possible. We miss you and your gift for words. Oh! By the way, if you are still looking for your bees, they might have made a trip to Arizona. We have lots of bees here.

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  28. Just. YES. Miss you. And those days. I always say be careful what you wish for! My garden is worse. I almost gave away my goats. SO glad I didn't. Chickens, dogs, cats, ponies keep me feeling warm inside. My garden makes me nauseous. Your pics inspire me again for new beginnings in the spring. This year I WILL copy your darling scarecrow and gate! Thanks for making me feel there are still folks out there who get me in all my struggles. I just may update my own blog soon! Merry Christmas and Restful New Year dear friend! xo Leslie

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