The autumn winds are blowing up in here today - and it's got me half crazy feeling with the thoughts of apple butter, mums and pumpkins. I know, I know - it's August 20th - but I'm hankering for a Pumpkin Spice Latte like nobody's business.
What is it that creates such a frenzy in my heart for fall?
I'm literally aching to get my hands on yarn...
But...alas...this is the Year of the Mallow.
Take a gander here -
I reckon the editor of the paper had a s'more at one of the markets, and I got a call...
how fun is this?
I feel really humbled, and oh so grateful today.
I'm doing a couple of markets in Fort Wayne and South Bend, and I heard from a couple of you darlings - so excited that I'm coming that way - and it just warmed my heart SO much - and it made me remember the days that I sat here pecking away at these very keys - sharing my heart and soul with y'all, and oh how I remember those days with such fondness! I just know in my knower those days will be here again, sooner than later.
But for now - I check the weather, make mallows, load up the Heep and do markets.
I'm up to five markets a week now.
It's utter ridiculousness - but it's just for a few more weeks, and then the markets start dropping off.
My next real day off is Dec. 15th, and I'm okay with that.
I dog-eared this year for all of this - and I will finish what I started.
I'm enjoying it all as much as I am not - if that makes any sense at all.
For every achy tired bone - there is a blessing.
My heart is filled with wonder at the people I've met.
I hope that I can write all the stories out sometime this winter.
At times I question myself, and wonder if I've gone completely batty - by doing this - but then I remember 'the goal'. The goal of debt free living. It's been so elusive for us since Glenco's hours were cut a few years back. Oh - and don't it just be figuring that he's been doing overtime since I started all of this mallow madness?
And so that just proves my theory.
I have absolutely no control over anything but my thoughts, actions, attitudes and reactions.
I saw this and thought it was awesome...
I still have a very unrealistic image in my head of life - of a time in my life when I can say 'I'm done'.
I'm done with the house.
I'm done with the garden.
I'm out of debt.
I'm done working on myself.
I think the light is finally turning on in my brain that the day I'm done is the day I enter eternal rest - and will I? For those of you that really know me - you laugh at the thought - me, resting....I'll get to heaven with me sleeves rolled up looking for something to do I will!
As it is now - I long, and I do mean long - I LONG to clean the house! I look at my stove and refrigerator with a lustful feeling inside - imagining the day I have the time to give them a proper deep cleaning. I long to restore order. I long to simmer soup and press pillow cases again.
It's hard to believe it's nearing September - and I'm welcoming it with open arms.
Live life open my friends.
Forgive yourself - over and over.
Stay present - find something beautiful in the ordinary -
and realize the absolute truth of this statement:
If you want to be happy.
I miss you all! I responded to all of your comments from the last post - in the comment section...