Lord have mercy.
It's the 7th of November.
Do you realize what this means?
Neither do I.
I need to spill some beans here.
That means 'confused, at a loss, perplexed'.
I've been sitting in my living room spot, with a large mug of lukewarm English breakfast tea, with my hoodie hood up - answering emails since 5:30am. It's now 7:23am.
One of the emails that I responded to was a dear reader asking me about my housecleaning routine.
I referred her to this
And then I started reading some of my old posts from that series.
I liked that series.
Honestly - I feel that my blog has been on life support for some time now.
I feel like I've nothing funny, nor important to say.
I feel that I oughta pull the plug on it before it dies a slow, painful, gaspy death.
My blog is alot like Seinfeld - it's really a blog about nothing.
It's just a snippet of my life - and I don't sugar coat it - don't embellish it - it just is me.
Honestly, I can't believe y'all have stuck with me for as long as you do - and when I hear from you via comments and emails - it just brightens me up, from the inside out.
Lately, I've been second guessing so much of life.
Maybe it's losing 75 lbs recently and finding the new me.
Maybe it's turning 50 in a few months.
Maybe it's none of the above and I just need therapy and meds.
|latest pic of me - second from left - October 2011|
What I've really been second guessing lately is my decision to stay home full time.
I mean - wouldn't a smart person just go out and work like a maniac and build up a nice sized bank account?
Shouldn't I do that?
I often feel guilty when I talk to my friends that do work full-time.
I've been there and done that - and I know first hand what a stress that can be at times, but I also know the joy of the feeling of having a purpose, enjoying work friendships, and well - enjoying money!
I mean - can I REALLY bring home the bacon, fry it up in the pan and never let Glenco forget he's a man?
Honestly, I'd rather not try.
ll the drivel here to say that I think I've just lost my way recently. I think that psychologically there is something about losing a great deal of weight that you end up redefining yourself.
I've had two highly respected friends tell me recently how calm I seem.
How I exude peace.
ADHD Poster Child?
And I think is some way - that this new found peace feeling - as foreign as it is to me, and yet what I have purposely cultivated in my life - makes me feel downright boring.
Law. I hope not.
So all of this to ask this -
what were/are your favorite parts of my blog?
I feel the need to return to my roots - about being home - loving home - being frugal - gardening - cooking -
What say ye?
(oh and I bet you thought I forgot to answer all those questions that you guys asked me on the honey giveaway - well, you'd be right - gonna answer them this week.)