I realize that I ended quite abruptly last night.
It was late - I was tired - and writing that post drained me somewhat.
The reliving it and all.
I just wanted to 'shoe horn in' as Anne Lamott says, the following.
I'm in a very good place now.
I feel healed and whole - but as I said in my previous post - I live aware. Aware that poor nutrition, lack of self care, taking any type of a pill - could easily cause me to be symptomatic again.
In the darkest days I had - I always knew there was hope. I truly never felt alone.
Surely, you all know how ridiculously introspective I am - and I feel that I do know myself quite well - and I just knew within my core that this was an organic problem - and there was a solution.
I knew I could be fixed. I knew THAT wasn't me.
If you could see the bookmarks on my computer - you'd laugh - there has to be at least a hundred of them - all related to nutrition and bipolar symptoms...
Did you know many people are diagnosed bipolar when it's really your thyroid?
Did you know Jane Pauley was hospitalized for three weeks after taking steroids and anti-depressants (which I took for the poison ivy, and again for tendinitis) - she was in a hypomanic state - and depression followed. It's a fascinating article.
Did you know that gluten can cause flare ups in bipolar disorder?
I could go on but I won't.
But I will tell you this. When I stay away from gluten and dairy - I'm as right as rain.
Food sensitivities are real.
What I hope you will take away from all of this is:
Don't stop fighting. Find the answer. You shouldn't have to live your life depressed, overwhelmed, confused, stressed, etc. It's not right - it's not how you were designed to live.
You have to be relentless, you have to keep digging, and find those answers.
Don't treat symptoms.
Find the cause my friends.
Initially, it doesn't seem like it's the easy way - but honestly - in the long run - it is.
I've proven over and over again in my life that food is an issue.
Wheat and dairy - I'll say it til I'm blue in the face.
I think Glenco summed it up perfectly when he said 'This is great - you know what the answer is - it's the food!' - and then in the next breath said 'oh crap - it's the food'.
It's one of the hardest things to do - to completely change your lifestyle and eating habits.
Sometimes I have thought 'a pill is easier! Pass the bread!'
But then I remember the hell I lived through for the better part of two years.
Get your gut healthy.
95% of your serotonin is made there.
Heck, everything is made there.
This is paramount.
Don't overbook yourself.
Take hot baths.
Be around people you love often.
Eat real food.
(and some marshmallows)
Always look for the good in others.
Be kind to yourself.
It's really simple - we just make it hard.
Please know I am here - even though I don't blog very often - I'm here, and I read every stinking comment. You all have been a tremendous blessing to me. If you need to, please feel free to reach out. I will return your email.