A sign I saw at the County Fair...it just cracked me up. This will be a random, somewhat useless post! Just touching base with you all, since I've been a bit AWOL.
It's Sunday morning at 9:12am CST and all I've accomplished today is feeding the fish, drinking coffee and skimming the Sunday paper. It's an usual day for sure. I went to bed last night feeling rather lost. Why? It's too hot to be outside today, so now what the heck?? Even the chickens are walking around with their beaks open it's so humid. I've been so accustomed to spending every waking moment in the yard that I don't know what to do now that it's not an option. I've no inside projects that I can start and finish today, and I know myself well enough to not start anything I can't finish. So now what??
There are PLENTY of things I could/should do. We still need to find a home church. I need to deal with the two gallons of refrigerator pickles I made. I have a pile of sewing that needs doing. I still need to order Aaron's curriculum for this year!! A definite priority. I really want to make some cheese. I bought everything to do that......so many recipes I'd like to try. Lots of emails to catch up on. The pantry and fridge need a good cleaning. That stack of books from the library.....well, you get my drift.
Why is it as soon as I feel no real pressure of chores, that I just fall apart? Anyone else feel like that? Where does this need to be productive every nano-second of the day come from? I should relish in the fact that there is really nothing that needs to be done today and go float in the blue lagoon....oh well....
Other bits of news, and I'm hoping for a little feedback here. In case you didn't know, I'm a borderline hypochondriac. In a good way. :-) I don't dismiss what I consider symptoms. This week I start physical therapy for bilateral hip bursitis and illiotic band tendonitis. Girls, I've been hurtin'. It's hard to do yard work, and ride my bike, and do things I like to do. I'm on some anti-inflammatory pills, and gack...they make me feel like crap.
Now, the real thing I'd love some input on.....and then I promise to go back to happy things like flowers and recipes and chicken birds.....
I'm having some 'female' troubles. I'm almost 48. I can't seem to get an answer from a Dr. that gives me peace. A couple of years ago I had some pre-cancerous cells that they removed from my cervix. All of my pap smears since then have been normal. For the last couple of years, my periods have been terribly painful and erratic. I bleed consistently between my periods. Pain in what seems to be my ovaries wakes me up in the middle of the night. I'm always bloated feeling and cramping. I've had an ultrasound recently that showed nothing. I went in for an endometrial biopsy and was traumatized because the Dr. couldn't get IN my uterus!!! She wanted me to come back and be packed with seaweed.....well...you get the drift.
I'm thinking of going to a Dr. at the University of Chicago to see if I can't find some answers. Do you all have any words of wisdom for me? Anyone around my age or older that went through anything like this?? Is this just the change starting?
Ok...I promise the next post will be all happy sunshine things.
Thanks for listening.
Wow, you have a lot going on. First of all, I can get that way about relaxing. I tend to just go either way drastically. I run around like a chicken with my head cut off and drive everyone crazy because I can't relax OR I say "Just chuck it all" and then Mark is yelling, "Wendy, do I have any clean underwear?" from the bedroom. Its hard for me to find a middle ground and just enjoy whatever the day has planned for me, Lots of work or little work.
ReplyDeleteAbout your female issues. I don't know about the change yet, BUT I do know if you feel like you should get checked out GO GET checked out. Not to scare you that anything IS wrong, but why put yourself through all that. Go to another doctor. Yes, they are smart and you rely on them, but my goodness, they work for you. Get some peace about it and then maybe you can relax about it. Just my two cents worth.
And I can't wait to meet your girls. I'm probably going to be making jelly this week so I'll be sending you some scuppernong jelly soon.
Mama Hen...thanks for your kind comment! I'll be looking up some Dr's today.
ReplyDeleteI'm the SAME way...boy did I crack up about the clean underwear. I'm all or nothing.
Sounds exactly like issues I had in my early thirties. It does sound like endemetriosis. I had the same issues, painful periods that seemed to never end month to month, abdominal pain etc. Go see another Dr. They can test by an endoscopy(sp) where they make a small incision in your belly button and insert a camera tube to see what is there. Dont wait, it isnt worth the pain! Love Ya
ReplyDeleteOh Lord Bert that sounds horrible! I do want to rule that out tho. I guess if someone can tell me 100% that I do not have uterine, ovarian or cervical cancer...I'll be ok, and I can deal with this.
ReplyDeleteJayme, I had hip bursitis about 6 yrs ago. They gave me a shot of cortisone (painless) into the bursa and that worked great for nearly a year. Then I had to have a second shot. After that it never came back. Ask for a shot!
ReplyDeleteThe 'female troubles' definitely don't sound like menopausal symptoms. I never had endometriosis, but from what I've heard about it, you might have it. As far as the endoscopy goes, I'm pretty sure you'd be 'out' for that: when I had my tubes tied via an incision thru the belly button, it was done under general anesthesia. I knew/felt nuthin'.
Hi Sparky! A shot? In the hip? It was painless? Oy. I had therapy last night and I was ailing by the time I got home. I can't get over how painful bursitis is! I'm making an appt with a gynecologist today. I just want to rule things out, then I feel like I can deal with the pain and bleeding. Thanks for your comment!
ReplyDeleteThe cortisone shot goes into the bursa, which is the "sac" covering the hip, that what's inflamed and causing the pain. That's what bursitis is, inflammation of the bursa. The shot doesn't go into the hip itself, just the bursa. The two shots I had were both a snap, no pain other than the usual pinch from the needle, as with any shot.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you made an appt with your gynecologist!
Hey Jayme, I'm no help with the female troubles but I know a good home church!
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