A sign I saw at the County Fair...it just cracked me up. This will be a random, somewhat useless post! Just touching base with you all, since I've been a bit AWOL.
It's Sunday morning at 9:12am CST and all I've accomplished today is feeding the fish, drinking coffee and skimming the Sunday paper. It's an usual day for sure. I went to bed last night feeling rather lost. Why? It's too hot to be outside today, so now what the heck?? Even the chickens are walking around with their beaks open it's so humid. I've been so accustomed to spending every waking moment in the yard that I don't know what to do now that it's not an option. I've no inside projects that I can start and finish today, and I know myself well enough to not start anything I can't finish. So now what??
There are PLENTY of things I could/should do. We still need to find a home church. I need to deal with the two gallons of refrigerator pickles I made. I have a pile of sewing that needs doing. I still need to order Aaron's curriculum for this year!! A definite priority. I really want to make some cheese. I bought everything to do that......so many recipes I'd like to try. Lots of emails to catch up on. The pantry and fridge need a good cleaning. That stack of books from the library.....well, you get my drift.
Why is it as soon as I feel no real pressure of chores, that I just fall apart? Anyone else feel like that? Where does this need to be productive every nano-second of the day come from? I should relish in the fact that there is really nothing that needs to be done today and go float in the blue lagoon....oh well....
Other bits of news, and I'm hoping for a little feedback here. In case you didn't know, I'm a borderline hypochondriac. In a good way. :-) I don't dismiss what I consider symptoms. This week I start physical therapy for bilateral hip bursitis and illiotic band tendonitis. Girls, I've been hurtin'. It's hard to do yard work, and ride my bike, and do things I like to do. I'm on some anti-inflammatory pills, and gack...they make me feel like crap.
Now, the real thing I'd love some input on.....and then I promise to go back to happy things like flowers and recipes and chicken birds.....
I'm having some 'female' troubles. I'm almost 48. I can't seem to get an answer from a Dr. that gives me peace. A couple of years ago I had some pre-cancerous cells that they removed from my cervix. All of my pap smears since then have been normal. For the last couple of years, my periods have been terribly painful and erratic. I bleed consistently between my periods. Pain in what seems to be my ovaries wakes me up in the middle of the night. I'm always bloated feeling and cramping. I've had an ultrasound recently that showed nothing. I went in for an endometrial biopsy and was traumatized because the Dr. couldn't get IN my uterus!!! She wanted me to come back and be packed with seaweed.....well...you get the drift.
I'm thinking of going to a Dr. at the University of Chicago to see if I can't find some answers. Do you all have any words of wisdom for me? Anyone around my age or older that went through anything like this?? Is this just the change starting?
Ok...I promise the next post will be all happy sunshine things.
Thanks for listening.